I like you already understood. Really. Now shut up!
So last semester was stupid but now it is in the past.
Then came Matt. His visit was (to describe everything as melodramatic as possible) like a light that guided me through the darkness of the semester. In the end it was something nice. In the end I could access for 3 days back this lost time in Tübingen. Juhu. And the visit was really great. I jumped at it and everything went perfectly and it was just good to see a good friend.
On Friday, he returned to Germany. And then began the university work again. And then returned to the unzauberhafte life. Since I write my essay terrible. Now, the essay actually done ... bad, but ready. On weekends I go to Durham, because I must leave this city for a few days umbedingt. If I would stay here longer, I would quickly crazy.
Recently, I felt weak. With no language or ideas I'm clear. I think and I write and I speak but the feeling is still lacking. When I'm with people, I hear the words, but I just want to hear the beautiful sound of blended voices. The meaning I understand when I feel like it, but somehow I could not at this time does not matter.
My language skills are still weak. While speaking, I lack not the words, writing is (as you can read here) even worse, but at least I can listen to people and songs are still good. Although some people I have not felt this evening. And they did everything they just said. And they asked me if they talked too fast. Even twice in a sequence. But sorry! When I say that I understand, you should believe me. When I say that you can not speak too fast, you should ask me the same question more slowly. Everyone loses at some point in the world of waking dreams, but my God ... I think I niiieee for such a trip was treated so condescendingly.
I miss my friends in Tübingen, to never talk to me so. They had believed in me and to me (I think) still believe.
