Puh
have my sister and I met our father for breakfast. I had thought that coffee would actually be better because you can always go away quickly, but my sister has meant that breakfast is better because you have to do something when no one wants to talk. And because our father is almost always silent, the proposal has won my sister.
I had to get up incredibly early, because after an hour or so "would have to go to work," although I do not work today was (he knows not, of course) and we must always be in the office at half-9th
We have never understood, but has since he told me that he is my tuition fees this year because bezählen could (my sister has told me this earlier because he was afraid to post me his decision), I really have. .. I do not know. I do not hate him. He is my father, and that's why I love him, but ... can you love someone have, if you do not like the same person? Is that possible?
He has spoken. We also have said something. Not much. Just enough so that when there is a break between two songs on the radio was, the room would be filled not only with the silence of our disgust. Of course he has almost only discussed money, save money because nothing in the world it is important (or perhaps almost anything ... from our perspective, money is his only interest). My sister and I just nodded and eaten, as he discusses abstract ideas of the world and the motives of the American government itself.
There are three issues that he would like discussed. Money, God, and ... the U.S. government. Exciting. He has asked me today whether I go to the church. I answered him honestly, and then he told me that I should have no fear of the church, because God already knows me without having an idea. Since the separation of my parents, he became very religious. And I do not know ... I believe in God. That's enough for me. And he can not understand. My sister told me once or twice said that he almost every day in the Church goes, and I just thought that he really is almost a lost cause. A soul is good or bad because it helps other people or not and not only because it regiments as going to church. I do not know what to say to him when his own mistakes and shortcomings can not see, and he was always my "error" recognizes, mistakes that I would not call it a mistake; errors that would not also accept other people as an error ..
Then he discussed the family in Germany - also a popular topic and only meant that they actually have better opportunities to enjoy life. But I'm just wondering why he could not see that his cousin deserved no more money than him, although his cousin, traveled and supported his family (an idea that can not detect it), and that he does everything, because he understands that to make money, so you can spend money? I do not know ... I can not believe that he really believes that he has earned no money in his life. It is difficult and I know I sound greedy, but it's just that I have an idealistic image, support parents to their children at the university and their children with homework help at school and sometimes make a compliment. My mother's parents had such parents, that would really do anything for her children (and my mother's parents have also tried to call this as an example) and my mother is and was just so wonderful and has always cited as an example, and therefore It is always so difficult to understand why my father is the opposite.
I do not understand him. And quite frankly, I have no Desire to understand him anymore. I just had Genung it.
At least this time he has the 2nd World War was not discussed. But next week we meet for a coffee. Maybe he zurückgehaltet his fifth favorite topic for it.
And now I must go to bed. I have to work tomorrow. Maybe I'll read this entry tomorrow. If not, excuse me, that I have made so many mistakes.
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